A Million Little Things

We pulled Jax out of school and we are homeschooling him, for now. For now. I honestly can't give you one reason why. Its a million little things that got us here. It started with a constant unsettled feeling every day, day in and out, with where Jax was. That feeling lasted for a few months. Then one night on our week long vacation Landon and I were talking, at the cabin, with no cell service, hot chocolate and a warm fire at a feet. And homeschool popped out of my mouth. SHOCK! Then the next day I felt an overwhelming urge, so much so that I cried my eyes out thinking it may become reality, to pursue that thought. "Home School." It then progressed into 100's of different conversations with probably 100 different people. So so so SOOO much prayer. General Conference. So much more prayer! The Temple. SOOOO many youtube videos about curriculum. So many questions. Little tiny moments. Little steps in a direction. Way too many late nights with Landon stewing over pros and cons. Pray and then Action! 

A MILLION LITTLE THINGS! 

If you ever really want to know our whole process give me a call, I still wont have a great answer for you but I'd be happy to chat. I always am:).  I can say that this last week felt good. We will see how this week goes. We are taking this one day at a time. And it could very well be a two month stint. 

Today was a long good day with my family down in Orem. My dad was released as Stake President and we wanted to be there for him to support him and my mom. It was a happy/sad moment. I love my parents. But because of that, its late, I want to spend some time with Lando so ta ta!!!!! 

Becs

OBSESSED!!!!

JOY!!!!!

PRIDE!!!!

The three main emotions we feel towards these three. Luke=Joy, Jax=Pride, Ty=Obsession. I think that probably has a lot to do with their age. But i'm grateful for all three emotions.They help me keep going in the hard moments. Of course I feel these three emotions and many more for each of them, but different stages bring different feelings. I love them all so much and I couldn't, just couldn't feel more blessed that God has given them to me to raise and love and learn from and serve.

Sushi with my parents. I love them.

"Free Couch. No Bed Bugs. Only 1 DEATH." Yep! Our neighborhood people. 

7 Years YOUNG

Jax turned 7 this week. I don't want to talk about that.... except thats all i'm going to do right now :). 

When I asked him what he wanted to do for his birthday he said: "I want to go get doughnuts with the Fetzers. I want to go to the park with West, Oskar and Kingston. I want to eat biscuits and gravy in the morning and then play games as a family. I want to go golfing with dad. And I want to go to the cheesecake factory with everyone in the family." But really that is exactly what he said. Its a good thing we had a few days to celebrate. And besides the 3 hour wait at the Cheesecake Factory (which we opted out of and went to a park instead with everyone. We did bring a cheesecake though. WIN!).... we did everything on his list :) 

We always go around in a circle and talk about what are favorite things about the birthday person are. Our birthday circle comments: Landon said he loves Jaxsons persistence, he has grit and he can stick with something for a long time. And he loves that he has recognized that he is a big brother. I said that I love how Jaxson just wants to do and choose what is right in all areas of his life as a son, a friend, a cousin, a student, a brother, and a person. Ty said, "I sad because Yaxson got a gun and I didn't." And thats all we could get from him. It was a wonderful weekend celebrating one of my favorite humans on the planet!!!! Love you Jaxy boy. You fill me with pride, love, purpose, gratitude, and joy!!!! Lets make year 8 of motherhood/boyhood the best on yet. Crying elephant tears over here.

Birthday boy questionnaire. 

1.     Who is your favorite person in the whole world: Ty

2.     What is your favorite color? Blue because BYU is blue

3.     What is your favorite TV show? Wild Kratts

4.     What is your favorite movie? Harry Potter 3

5.     What sport do you like best? Football & Soccer

6.     What song(s) do you love? Anything Imagine Dragons

7.     What is your favorite food to eat? Biscuits and Gravy

8.     Who is your best friend? West, Oskar, Kingston & Ty & The Fetzers, Hailey... all my cousins

9.     What do you want to be when you grow up? A Scientist

10.  What is your favorite book? Imagination Station. Harry Potter

11.  Where do you wish you could go on vacation? Cincinnati and Hawaii

12.  What is your best memory? Going to San Diego

13.  What would you buy if you had $1000? A big Harry Potter set of reading books, wands, costumes, magician practicing stuff

14.  What vegetable do you hate most? Brussel Sprouts

15.  If you could have a wish, what would it be? Have 1 million dollards

16.  What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? Chocolate

17.  Who is your biggest hero? Dad

18.  What do you like to do with your family? Go on trips

19.  What do you hope you’ll get to do before your next birthday? Go on another trip

20.  What is something you think you’re really good at? Soccer

21.  What is something you want to be better at? Baseball

22.  What is your favorite thing to do outside? Play soccer

23.  What is your favorite restaurant? Café Rio

24.  What is your favorite treat? Branbury Doughnuts

25.  What are you most excited about in your future? Going to Harry Potter land when I’m 13

26.  What are you not looking forward to? Getting another shot

He also requested Spiderman cupcakes for his class at school. 

Batman ones for Ty. 

Third child. They are just the best best in the whole world.  

I did another presentation on Kon Mari this week. This closet makes me so happy! 

 The Fetzer/Cooper Clan

School buddies

[Insert Picture into your mind of Top Golf with Dad. :)]

Cousins!!!!

Cousins! 

These two!!!!! Oh my goodness. They play so well and I love them with my whole heart. 

My dads last Sunday.

One Bathroom and All.

Landon:

He is really enjoying his rotation and Primary Children’s Hospital and it is solidifying his desire to do a pediatric fellowship. We opened the application portal this week. My heart. Here we go again!!!!!!! He loved his day on Saturday. It started with running a 5k with Jax while pushing Ty and Luke. Then birthday party for Hazel and the family all together. Then Scott and Jen watched our kiddos while we went on a date and long drive. Then date night(which included a much needed car wash + city lights + empanadas). Then BYU beat Hawaii. He woke up very happy this morning! 

Becca:

I spent most of the week working towards a big change. It’s making me feel both nervous and empowered. Sad and excited. Scared and brave. This role of motherhood. It’s a beautiful, wonderful, brave, scary, heavy, exhausting, stretching, hard hard hard, and fulfilling role and job. I went to the temple this week and just prayed to God asking for help and direction and courage. I’m positive that nothing else will bring me closer to Him and more grateful for Him than this eternal role of motherhood. And I’ve only just begun! I’ve only JUST begun. I’m a 7 year old mother this week. That’s just still soooo young:)!!! 

Jaxson:

He scored THREE goals in his soccer game this week. A hat trick! He PRd in his 5k with a time of 31:07. He got to stay up late and watch the BYU football game with Dad. He played played played with his cousins all weekend. He can snap his fingers like a pro. We love his zest for life and learning and experiences.

Ty:

He would only play in his soccer game if I held his hand. He refused to run in his race. He doesn’t love going to preschool. He is overwhelmed by lots of people he doesn’t know. He does not like learning or practicing unless it’s on his time, his idea, in his own way. He and Jax are COMPLETE opposites in so many ways. And it’s almost surprising how much we love each of them for who they are. Seriously, I remember when Jax was three and still my only child worrying that I would never be able to love another child like Jax. I remember worrying that I’d always compare the rest of my kids to Jaxsons obedience and learnability. But I just don’t. Sure I notice that Jax has strengths that Ty doesn’t. And I notice strengths that Ty has the Jax doesn’t. And I love them for their strengths and weakness and differences and similarities. And I love them unrelated to each other. It’s really remarkable to me. My heart must have grown and my ability to love expanded. And it allows me to understand just a little more how Heavenly Father can love all his children in all of their strengths and weaknesses. TYs drive and determination to do what he wants is remarkable. No one will stop him. No one can convince him into an idea he doesn’t deem worthy. His deep deep deep love for family and cousins and brothers is almost palpable. He knows who is important, who is eternally linked to him. We love his strong will and his spirited personality. 

Luke:

And then there is Luke! LUKE!!!!!!!! Speaking of my heart growing and love expanding. Luke! LUKE! I just can’t even. He too has a completely different personality than his brothers. He still is on a 100% breast milk diet. Six months came too soon. babies and solids. Blah!! But I love my babies and I can not get enough of Luke. He is the happiest little baby I’ve ever had. He’s chunky and gushy and squishy and continues to remind me that God loves me and knows me and sees what our family needs!!! 

Oh man. How blessed are we. Three beautiful wonderful capable happy healthy boys. Landon and I jokingly had a text conversation of all the things we wish we had. Examples: two bathrooms, clothes for every season for every weather, a bigger home, another bedroom, a garage, A bike for a Landon, a uncracked iPhone screen, a house that doesn’t smell like wet moldy wood (another leak), a bathtub that we could actually take a bath in, less busy work schedule, more vacation, money and savings, etc etc. And it was honestly just a funny text thread but I think both of us separately read that list and thought “man! This is all we can come up with??” We are blessed beyond measure, one bathroom and all!!! 

Lunch in the doctor breakroom

Ty ran right into a thin rope in a darkly lit place on the U of U campus!! Stupid U of U. He was trown backwards and through his tears said "I thought my head was going to pop off"

He passed four peeps at the very end. 4 grown men!