Monday was spent prepping for our drive to Utah. I listened to The Section trilogy in triple speed and finished al three books right when I finished loading up the car Tuesday morning.
Our boys are cute and good and experienced little travelers. I love them.
Wednesday we spent with the Wennerholm’s. Bowling and playing with Cope and Hallie! Then kisses to Jo and dinner and talking Cor and Lace. I love them all so much. Sometimes I wish we didn’t get along as well as we do, then it wouldn’t make me so sad we didn’t live right next to each other. Lacey has so many qualities that I admire and her family is beloved by ours.
Thursday we had every Edwards member under the same rough. That has never happened. And pretty soon we will welcome two more little ones. But they were still with us!! We had the most delicious Thanksgiving and then only ruined the day a little by going to Wish! But we all but made up for it by ending the night watching the best clips from classic Disney movies.
My mom and Dads new home is beautiful! But it’s more than that to me. It is proof of my parents commitment and ever present sacrifice to their family. Change is hard and the move didn’t make a lot of sense on paper. But their commitment to keeping the Edwards bond strong is incredible to me. And this move will do that!
Landon and I took our nieces to Gentri on Friday. There will always be an ache in my heart that I don’t have a daughter. But I relish the time I get to spend with my sweet nieces. I see so much of their amazing mom in them. Sarah is patient and constantly trying to be better, she is way too hard on herself. Any child would be blessed to have her as their mom. And Nate has embraced the girl world better than any could. Though he will also do wonderfully raising his adorable little boys. He is sweet and gentle and self sacrificing.
Friday night was special, as my siblings and parents took me out for my birthday. They all went around and said something they love about me. I hope one day, I actually live up to the things they said about me. Johnny and Marie complimented how wonderful my boys are. That was sweet of them, but they are one to talk. They’ve raised a talented bunch of boys. And I’m excited to see what #5 will become—nothing short of amazing.
Saturday we went to the temple with my mom. It was beautiful. I love when my boys get it mix family and God. Though, it feels like God is probably always there when it comes to family.
We went back and watched football the rest of the day. I watched Scott and Jen parent 3 under 3 in amazement. How do they do it? And how are they brave and determined enough to welcome a 4th baby soon? I walk away from them always wanting to put more things in perspective, as they do it better than anyone I know. Jax really didn’t want to go to Gentri, and when Scott offered to take him to his house, I couldn’t force him to come with us anymore. Any chance Jax can spend around Scott and Jen, I’ll take! I admire their faith and goodness and funness.
The fourth night ended with my parents, Landon, Jax and Gary. Like it had the previous nights. Gary is amazing. It was sweet to see the loyalty Gary and Jacqueline have for each other. They’ve had so many hard things but they continue to persevere. Gary gives the best advice of anyone I know. And I find that I become a better parent after I talk to him. He gets people and connects with them and sees them and knows how to help them. He takes interest in all my boys. And builds them up and loves them. He does that with us too. A world without Gar would be incomplete.
Every time I drive home from time with family, my heart aches. It is harder to live away from them now than it ever was when Landon was in training. But now I see the beauty and possibilities that Spokane has for my little family and that has had to come with sacrifices. Really only two. Family and winter light.
Loyalty is a funny thing. How can the shift be so right? And as I pour everything I have in raising these four boys, there will come a day when their loyalty will beautifully shift from this woolf family, to their woolf family. And I just hope that I can be there, watching, supporting, and loving them through it all.
So here we are an hour away from Spokane, home. The home Landon and I created and chose together. And I realize that even though my heart will break slightly through these goodbyes and these changes, one thing will stay the same, and that’s Landon. And then my heart doesn’t hurt anymore. Because as long as I’m with him, the other changes, disappointments, goodbyes, and heartbreaks, I can handle.
It was a really great Thanksgiving!! I’m so thankful for the family God blessed me with. It seems unfair when others don’t get as lucky. But I guess all I can do is just honor and love and appreciate them. Ta ta.
Oh and a side note! I didn’t get a chance to talk with Becca Becca but I love who she is, the little sis I never had. And we always and forever love the Curtis Fam
