Optimism, Confidence... Happiness

My Friend showed me this video and im obsessed with it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qR3rK0kZFkg

A very very long post is coming :)!

Engaged... Again?

One year ago.

One year ago Landon and I were sitting on top of Cascade Golf Course. We were about to leave and I said, "Landon do you think you could speed up your time table a little bit?" I then continued to tell him what I wanted the time table to be. Fast.

Landon did what any good, smart man would do. Ran! Haha, just kidding. He got on his knees and of course there happened to be the perfect ring in his pocket.

In honor of our one year anniversary of being engaged Landon and I went ring shopping. We are going on a cruse in a week, and I don't want to take my perfect ring. We went to Walmart, Claires, Icing, and Target. Every ring was at least 3 sizes to big. Apparently no one carries a size 3 for adults. I was getting very discouraged, but Landon said we could try one more Walmart in Lindon. There was nothing on the ring rack. I asked the lady at the counter if they had any little girl rings. She said, "We have baby ones, but they won't fit."

Well it fit. I found my second perfect ring. No seriously, I'm obsessed with it! Landon proposed to me again. He even had a speech. This time there was no shaking or tears, but a lot more love!

31556926 Seconds

Dear Elder Edwards,

I can't believe you've been gone 1 Year. 1 Year or 52 weeks. 52 Weeks or 365 Days. 365 Days or 8765 Hours. 8765 Hours or 31556926 Seconds. However you put it, its been a while.

Remember when we use to play choo-choo train?

Remember when we would go to the park?

Remember how we graduated Preschool together?

Remember how good we were at raking the leaves... and then jumping in them?

Remember how we played king of the banana boat and Remember how I always won?

Remember Prom?

Remember how I wanted my best friend ever in my senior pictures?

Remember our Arizona trip filled with movies, basketball, movies, food, movies and movies?

Remember Basketball?

Remember who your biggest fans were?

Remember how you are such a dork?

Remember the day you went through the temple?

Remember how I was the only one in the family that couldn't be there because I wasn't endowed yet?

Remember how I can be there now?

Remember how you couldn't be at the biggest/most wonderful day of my life?

Remember how I tried to include you?

Remember how life has changed so much in the last year?

Remember how we've both grown so much?

Remember how I'm so proud of you?

Remember how I love you?

Remember how I always will?

Remember how you're still my favorite little brother and best friend a girl could have?

Do you Remember?

I do. I remember it all!

Only 1 Year left. 1 Year or 52 weeks. 52 Weeks or 365 Days. 365 Days or 8765 Hours. 8765 Hours or 31556926 Seconds. However you put it, it will still be a while.

I love you Scotty!

How Does He Always Know!?

Can I be honest with you for a moment? It mean truly honest???

He drives me crazy!!!

How does he always know? I mean he always knows. It drives me crazy! He has an answer to everything. He has faith in everything. He knows everything. How?

I break my Jaw -- everything will be alright
I find out my computer crashes -- everything will be alright
I lose my phone -- everything will be alright
I need a job -- everything will be alright
I get mad -- everything will be alright
We have no place to live -- everything will be alright
I lose 2,000 dollars -- everything will be alright
I don't feel well -- everything will be alright
I forget to save my 20 page paper -- everything will be alright
I can't make it to work -- everything will be alright
I hurt a friend -- everything will be alright
I burn our dinner -- everything will be alright
I forgot about my meeting --everything will be alright
I run out of gas, not at the gas station -- everything will be alright
I can't keep on top of everything -- everything will be alright

After time...

My jaw healed -- and hey, I lost some weight :)
I didn't need a computer -- and I do more meaningful projects now
I found my phone -- and no one needed me
I got my job back -- and better pay
I calmed down -- and learned through the process
We found a home -- the best apartment ever
I found the 2,000 dollars -- and we put it in our savings
I feel better--and healthier
I recovered the 20 page paper for class--and turned it in on time
I missed work-- but they were fine
I mended the friendship--our friendship grew
I ordered pizza -- it was better anyway
I rescheduled --they forgot too
I got gas -- and met a friend
I got caught up--and did even more

He knows. Every time, he knows. Today it happened again. During my lunch break I made the comment, "We are not going to make it!" He then quickly replied with, "Bec, we are fine. Everything will be alright."

I found out... It was.

Oh how blessed I am to have him. I may not always know that everything will be alright, but I know he knows. Thats alright with me.

I love you Landon!

Curve Balls & a Homerun

I love baseball. It is my favorite sport. I probably went to over 1,000 baseball games when I was little. My brothers all played. Johnny was the amazing catcher. Gary was the trusted hitter. Nate was the speedy reliable outfielder. Scotty was... well scotty was everything--so he played basketball. :) Every single moment that I watched them play, I was proud to say, "Hey... thats my brother." I still am.

From my memory, it seems that the greatest victories always came when a curve ball was thrown.

Life is funny that way isn't it? One moment can be calm, blissful, surreal and then you blink and your world seems upside down. It is not. It just seems that way. All that has happened is your view changed. You took your eye off the ball.

See you have to remember how a curve ball works. It looks like it is coming in straight, but at the last second it curves. Most people swing and miss because they were looking at where they thought the curve ball should have been... instead of where the curve ball was planning to be all from the beginning. Even if it is hard sometimes you can't forget to keep your eye on the ball. In the end it is not how the ball comes over the plate, it is how you connect with it that matters.

I had a lot of curve balls thrown at me today. I swung at all of them... I never connected. About 10 minutes ago a good friend of mine called and said she was really sick and was flying home to see a doctor. All of a sudden I realized something, I had taken my eye off the ball.

Today I forgot that I have a beautiful home to keep us warm, a wonderful family who supports us and loves us, a great job that provides stability in our lives, enough food to always make us happy and full, the gospel which guides and directs us and an amazing husband. A husband who has fallen asleep on top of his flash cards because after 4 hours of class, 5 hours of work, 4 hours of volunteer, 2 hours of presidency meeting, 2 tests and an hour of study he can't keep his eyes open. I am the luckiest girl in the world.

Life is truly wonderful and I am grateful for all of the lessons I am learning.

Tonight I swung. Homerun.

Sometimes.... I forget!

Starting April 24th 2010 (yes I know that is in the past) through August 20th 2010......

......25 of my friends are getting married.

Some of these friends would be categorized as "old friends." No they are not old in age, and no they did not become "outdated friends." They are the ones that you were best friends with in 4th grade, talk to them about 2 or 3 times a year, but you still completely and entirely want them to be happy.

Some of these friends would be categorized as "new friends." They aren't version 2.0 of the old friends, they are just the friends that I met a little further in my life. I may have only been apart of their life for a year or two, but I still learned so much from each of them. Again, I still completely and entirely want them to be happy. Eternally happy, just like the old friends.

Some of these friends would be categorized as "closest friends." They are the ones that have been there through my happiest moments and my saddest moments. I feel like I have shared those moments in their lives too. And again I still completely and entirely want them to be happy. Eternally. Forever. Always

Here are some pictures of the already or soon to be eternally happy couples;

I love weddings. I love marriage. I love the marriages that include weddings. I love how every wedding is different. Different colors, cakes, dresses, invitations, reception hall, decorations, registries, pictures, flowers, shoes, time frame, personalities. Different families, budget, circumstances, and situations. Talking to people about their wedding is like Thanksgiving to me. (Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.) I love the different smiles, I love the cloud nine walk, I love the stories, I love the proposal, I love the "IM ENGAGED" text, I love the rings--Yes even the guys ring. I love talking about where they are going to live, how much that costs, how much everything costs, when they want kids. I love sensing the nervousness, the unknown, the curiosity, the anticipation, the butterflies, the love. I love seeing the "87 days left" on twitter or facebook, blogs or gchat! I also love how they are pretending to think that 87 days is not that far away when really... deep inside... it seems like eternity.

In short.... I love it all. It is truly so special and really one of the most exciting times in any single persons life. (Pun intended)

With all of this said. Sometimes I forget. I get so wrapped up in talking about where they are going on their honeymoon, what their dress looks like, how they are doing their hair (or his hair for that matter) and what I am going to be eating at their reception (thank you for feeding me). Even when I say, "So... where are you getting married," and I here the answer, I forget.

Why do we forget? Is it bad that we forget? I think so. We sometimes pick where we want to get married based on how pretty our pictures will be, but do we remember whats inside. I'm not pointing fingers. This is based off of myself and my thoughts. I forget. Maybe you don't. But this a good reminder to me.







(Notice how the girl is always on the left. Hehe. Funny!)

Yes the wedding is fun to talk about and the colors are fun to see. The dress is fun to pick out and the eating is quite.... tastey. But those 20 minutes, in the temple are the most important. It doesn't matter what we wear to the temple or the colors of our bridesmaid dresses. It doesn't matter what flavor our cake is or what our invitations look like. It doesn't matter how big our ring is or how many people come to see us on our perfect day. The gifts and the day is nice, but really if it were rainy, and our dress didn't fit right... if no one came to our reception, and the food tasted bad... if it were cold outside and no pictures were taken, it wouldn't matter.

The moment you walk out of the sealing room you become a new family. For a moment you are the newest unit in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Through the atonement you are able to be sealed to your one and only for eternity. If you keep the covenants you make with Heavenly Father, endless blessings will flow upon you and your new families' head. Once you step out of the sealing you are one step closer to returning home to your Father in Heaven. Now that is exciting! That is amazing! That is important!

I am so excited for all those who have or soon will start their own family. I am excited for those who have not found their one and only and will soon embark on that special journey. I am excited for the older married folks who still have eternity to spend with each other and... I am excited to spend the rest of eternity with my one and only. I am so very blessed! He is amazing and I am more in love with him now than I was 9 months ago. I can honestly say that I have never been happier in my life!!!! Life is wonderful. Happy Weddings everyone!

UnrOaNigzEd

Unorganized!!! Right now, I am unorganized. I HATE being unorganized. Right now, Landon is unorganized. That makes me feel twice unorganized. Is there such a thing as bi-unorganized or how about di-unorganized? I bet the word unorganized isn’t organized enough to even have a prefix with bi or di in front of it. Ok ok… Moving on.

(Right now this is the inside of my brain :). Hehe. It is also a picture of when Landon & I re-arranged the bedroom)

Like I said above I hate, hate, hate being unorganized. The only time I am truly stressed, is when I am unorganized. When I am truly stressed I end up with 4-5 cold sores on my left upper lip. Today... I have 5 cold sores.

Let me give you some examples of my unorganization.

• There are 3 full boxes of junk from my office and from Landon's house that our sitting in are office.
  
  
• Some of our pictures fell off the wall while we were in AZ and I haven't had time to pick them up.
  
  
• We have food, but only rice & noddles :).
  
  
• The tape on my calendar is stuck on vertically, not horizontally... and yes that bothers me :)!!!!
  
  
• Landon and I haven't been to sleep earlier then 12:00PM for about a month and a half now.
  

(This is just one late night! Landon, Logan and I sleeping under Lacey's tent the night before her wedding day. We were very good watch people if I do say so myself!)

• Because of the lack of sleep we have been getting, I have picked sleep over making lunches for me & Landon. Now we are hungry, sleepy, and ornery. Well I guess as ornery as Landon gets :)! Which really is a half frown for about 2 seconds.
  
  
• I have had 28 projects on my TO-DO list since the beginning of April and I have only finished 2 of them! 2 OF THEM!!!! I keep asking myself, “How can this be?” I feel like I have been working SO hard and I can’t even check off a single item. Yes I am one of those people that finds great relief in a little check mark.

Here are some things on my to-do list

Example 1: “Landon’s Truck (Registered, Cleaned, and Oiled)”
I can’t check that off because though we have completely registered the truck(YAY), half cleaned it, we still have yet to oil it. Sad.

(Yes Landon has truly become a UTAHAN!!! YAY :)

Example 2: “Landon’s Suit (Dry Cleaned) & White shirt (Bleached)”
Yes we did go and get Landon’s suit dry cleaned, but we have not yet bleached his white Sunday shirts.

(Look how good his suit looks! Notice Lacey's darling bridesmaid dresses, as well as Logan's new suit!!! Looking good Logan)

Example 3: “Landon’s Social Security Card”
You would think that since we went to get his card we could check it off, but last time we tried to do that, the card was lost. So I have to wait for our Dear Friend the Mr. Mail Man to hand us that tiny piece of paper to be able to check this one off.

Example 4: “Deep Clean & Re-organize our Home”
Yes I deep cleaned the kitchen and our family room. I re-arranged our bedroom. However, I haven’t had time to clean the baseboards in the kitchen, vacuum the family or finished re-decoration the bedroom. Man! I haven’t even started on the office or the bathroom.

(We LOVE our apartment!!! Love love LOVE it!)

Example 5: “Ask Landon on a Date!”
This is the worst one. For 3 reasons. First I haven’t asked him on a date yet. Second, how pathetic is it that I have to put that on my to-do list. And third, I accidently crossed it off. I CROSSED IT OFF! How could I have done that? Now I have to remember that I still need to do it, plus I don’t even get the satisfaction of crossing if off when I actually did it. I guess I will have to do the good old fashion, “Write it down even though you already did it and then cross it out to get satisfaction” way. Don’t laugh. I know some of you do that too!

Well, I guess the next thing I will put on my To-Do list is “Get Organized!” Sad to think that I won’t be able to cross that one off my to-do list either. Maybe I am doomed to a life a half-organized person. I can see it now…. People will stare. Pointing will happen. Whispers will be heard. “Look mom… there is that half-organized girl!!!” AH!!!!

Well enough for now. Landon and I are home from Lacey and Cory’s perfect day!

(The sealing was incredible as well as Lacey's endowment! Both incredible moments! Cory warned us, but he was right, he really is a cry baby! :)! Landon & I loved being there with them!)

(This is one of the only picture that Landon and I took together. First time wearing heals :)! Ha! It was such a great day!)

Landon is workING, volunteerING, shadowING and schoolING. I am just workING and hopefully doing a little organizING. Life really is wonderful! Just an UnRoGaNiZeD wonderful!

8 Months

Landon and I have been married now for 8 months! 8 MONTHS!!! Its been the best 8 months of my life. I can't speak for Landon, wait... actually I CAN NOW right? Isn't that how it works? Marriage=speaking for each other? Well if not I will let him know that it has been the best 8 months of his life too :)!

Here is the summary of our life over the past 8 months;

60 credits of school (combined);22 classes:A=17, B=5 and C=0 (Note: 4 of those B's are mine :(. It is really Landon with all the A's)

40 hours of work each week (combined); 6 Different Jobs (Note: 4 of those are because of me. Long, dumb, crazy, stupid, finally, story)

40 hours of Rape Crisis Training (Landon); We are both certified Rape Crisis Advocates for the state of Utah

20 hours of BYUSA each week (Becca)

6 attempts to get our truck registered. Still. Not. Registered. (Together)

3 Church callings (Combined) (Note: Landon has two of the callings. Geez you would think he was doing all the work)

1 Amazing trip to Arizona for Christmas (Together)

0 Broken Jaws (Combined)

As you can see, we have been SO busy! But we have loved it. Landon is taking what is equivalent to 24 credits spring term. He also will be working part time. I will be working full time and catching up on all of the things we haven’t had time to do. Don’t worry I have a list of 30 things already. (Mom you have cursed me :)!!!) First one on our list, Write thank you letters from our wedding. :/

Here are some pictures over the last couple of months. Enjoy

I have loved cooking! A couple of months ago I made Honey Glaze Salmon and Alfredo. We liked it

CONFERENCE WEEKEND

Not our best picture! But its the only one that turned out. Plus it was freezing so we didn't want to keep trying. This is us at the draper temple. It is our favorite so far (are you allowed to have favorites?) Just FYI, they don't rent clothes :). We would know. We love going to the temple, we have gone about every week since we've been married. Its the best!

Landon and I went to his mission reunion on April 2nd. Then we headed up to SLC to stay the night. We watched conference in the hotel for the morning session and then we went to the afternoon session. It was amazing. Of course. Landon stayed with my brothers and dad for the priesthood session. They sat really close. After the priesthood session we went to the cheesecake factory. Busy! Hear are some pictures. Naturally, nate did everything he could to not be in the pictures.

Mmmmm Cheesecake! After we ate, we went outside to the car and... We were locked out. My mom accidentally left the keys in the car. Don't worry, skip came to the rescue. Yes, his name is Skip! Perfect right?

We used a bunch of old school stuff to break in (ex: Hangers, Sticks, Flashlight, Arm pump and more.)! Rest assured that lexus' are hard to break into.


BYUSA

I am done with BYUSA. It has been my life for the past 2 1/2 years so I am kind of sad about it. One of the events that I put on was called unsung heroes. Students nominated other students for small, simple, unsung services. We had a great turn out. 100 people, Dinner, Dessert, and a speaker. At the end I handed out a letter to each unsung hero. The letter had what someone said about them. People were touched. Many tears of joy were shed. It was a really really special night.

When I got home from cleaning up, this was on the table with a note that said, "Thanks for being my hero!" I love my Landon!

Here is the team that helped me with this specific event. I love them. I have to say that this experience was probably the greatest leadership experience I have ever had!


Some other things that I did this year. I helped get rent-able laptops on campus, I designed a pin and a saying for all graduates from now until for ever, I help approve hundreds of events on campus, I helped get free water bottles handed out to students, I supervised a photo contest in the wilk, I had meetings and retreats and much more. The biggest thing I did is gained some of my very best friends in the whole wide world

One of the girls that was in the presidency with us wasn't there that day. Her name was Jessica!
She is one of the greatest girls that I have ever met. Here is a picture of her and her husband

Here are some pictures from our final retreat! It was a blast. Each one of these people have changed my life forever!

This was the room that we hung out in. Cami, Elise and I decorated it! So fun! We also went on a hike before we came here.





Leadership has been my passion since I was a little girl. I have been the president of something almost every year since I was in 6th grade. The last two years as the Executive Director for Clubs and the Executive Secretary in the presidency has been close to some of the greatest experiences of my life. My dream is to be a mom, so naturally I know that this is probably the last time I will be a part of something like this. PTA and Church don't count. But it has been a one of my greatest blessings!

SCHOOL

With that said, lets get back to the school life. For the last month Landon and I have basically been on campus until 11 or 12 every day. I've been cramming, he has been studying. I guess that's why I have 4 of the B's. Here are some of his study sessions

I drew the one below on the board for Landon! Cool huh!

Over the last month we have had some a lot of tender mercies. We thank Heavenly Father each night for them!!!

I will mention just a few. Nate bought us dinner one night and surprised us with it. P.F. Changs!!! It was AMAZING!

We has just enough money on our BYU card to take a break from our studies and get some ice cream


With some quarters in my office I was able to find my true love(Sorry Landon!) Crunch wrap supreme! I had two :)


We have had some great FHE's! One consisted of BBQ and a Movie


Lastly, we have had some beautiful weather to study outside!

This is actually the place I told Landon that I loved him. He said when he was little his dad use to squeeze his hands three times which meant "I love you." Well Landon, Jake and I were talking here and I squeezed his hands three times. This was also the place where I talked to my new Mom and Dad! Mama Woolf and Papa Woolf are some of the greatest people you will ever meet. Heavenly Father didn't just bless me with the perfect husband, but the perfect family to marry into! I love them!!! Here are some more pictures of the place



This is me, on top of the world, after my finals were done! See the globe:) hehe!


NATE

For my brothers Nate's brithday we went out to eat. Here is a picture with me, gary and landon. Also, here are the pictures with nate trying to get out of the pictures.


But we still got one. Don't hate us nate:)

He looks good.

WORK

Work has been crazy! I have switched to 4 different jobs since we've been married. They finally figured out where they wanted me and I love it. I also love love the girls that I work with. The other night we had a cake waffle party. We made Cake waffles and watched Princess and the Frog. So fun!!! SO good!!! I loved the movie too!


LACEY

Lacey and Cory are getting married in one week and one day!!!! I am SO excited for them. They are such a great couple and I love them both. Aren't they such a good looking couple. You would think they could share the wealth!!!!


I went to Lacey's bridal shower and it was so fun. She looked gorgeous. I love her SO much! Here are some pictures of the shower!



Welp! Thats all. I know, I know. Longest post known to man. I am just getting use to taking pictures, so I had a lot in the last couple of months. Landon and I LOVE life! As you can see we are so incredibly blessed. We are getting a great education, we have great jobs, we have the best families in the whole wide world and we have the gospel. Life couldn't get better!