12.06.2020

Week 16: Simply Special

 Our life is so simple right now and I plan on cherishing it! We are all home in our cozy home 24/7. Well except for Lando, but even he's been around so much lately. It was a simply special week for of little tender mercies and joy all over. 

Lando: 
He had an elective week where he used an ultrasound to find veins to stick IVs in. He did 27 and his goal was 25. He felt like he got better and was able to do some really hard sticks. He also was able to work out every day. He played basketball and football with Jax and did puzzle and perler beads with Ty. He wrestled Lukes and cuddled Brigs. He made me lots of energy balls and went and got me a coke for my migraine Saturday night. Which was particularly meaningful considering it was only 15 minutes before the BYU game started. I love him. He is the greatest part of my life. We went on a date yesterday during Luke's nap. The two older boys stayed home with Luke and we took Brigs on a long walk. Our kids are growing up and our life is shifting into a new phase and its so exciting. I'm so glad that no matter what phase we are in, Lando will always be the person by my side. 

Becs: 
I'm happy! This has been the best 3.5 weeks of motherhood ever. I just can't get over how lucky I am. Four beautiful healthy boys, a wonderful loyal husband, a cozy warm home, simplicity. Its wonderful. I've always maintained that my happiest time of motherhood was the first 4 months of Jaxson's life, well thats shifting. I will never ever forget these weeks and months and I feel positive that Kentucky will hold a special place in my heart. 

Jax: 
Loving his football cards. He was very stoic after the game last night. Brigham was the only one not in tears at the end of the game. Jax kept perspective, but he was sad. I cried too, man I hate sports sometimes and how much I care. Jax really wanted to watch football all day yesterday so he woke up at 6:45 and he and Ty cleaned the entire house before we got out of bed. It was wonderful. Jaxson is an incredible example and leader and we are blessed to have him. Also his teacher said during PTC that Jaxson is the ideal student. "He is flexible and happy. He sets high goals and achieves them. I can count on him. Everyone in class loves him." And on and on she went. I just responded, "Thats exactly how he is in our home too :)." 

Ty: 
I can't even with this kid. HE. HAS. STEPPED. UP. BIG. TIME. He is happy, he is flexible, he is helpful. He has been understanding when I can't help him. He has dutifully done online school every day, without complaint. He has cleaned up things when I ask. He has be happy. He has connected with Jax and Luke. I will never be able to thank Ty enough for how he's stepped up during this time. I can tell he feels different too. Grown up. He told me the other day during one of our come follow me chats that he felt the spirit recently because he's been doing what I asked him to. I feel so so so incredibly lucky to have Ty.  He has been an incredibly wonderful. And example and a connector. During his PTC his teacher just talked my ear off about how much she loves him and how well he's doing. 

Luke: 
He's so hard right now. Oh I just really don't like 1-4 year olds. They are so hard! But I love him. He love his fruit, and nursery songs. He sings and preforms all day long. I think he has enjoyed online school because the boys are around more. But it also makes it so we can never ever leave the house, not even for a walk. On Thursday I could tell that he was really struggling so I took him to the park once Landon was home and we went up and down slides and tubes and ladders. Then we went and saw Christmas lights while we ate dinner. At the end of both of those things he gave me a big hug, grabbed my face, and gave me a kiss and said, "I love you mommy. That was re fun." It was a really special night. Last night after the BYU game I cuddled with him in bed and started to cry.  He quickly grabbed my face, kissed my cheek, and whispered, "Luke loves mommy." When he isn't being a toddler, he is the sweetest light in our home.  

Brigs: 
Oh this boys is as special as the rest of him. I'm obsessed with him and want his growing upness to slow down. He is the best eater and has been sleeping pretty well. He has been calm when I need him to be and he makes all of us so happy. He has completed this band of boys and I can't wait to see what he teaches us all and adds to our home. But its time to go feed him so I have to go. 
























11.29.2020

Week 15: Remembering November 2020

 I’ve felt so much love the last few weeks! And I’ve been surprised and touched by the efforts of others. So today I just want to remember some of those efforts partly so I can remember in the future that even in this Covid Kentucky Newborn world of ours, we have been seen and loved and remembered and helped. But also, so when my life feels a little less crazy, or even now, I can do these things for others. These last few weeks have taught me that you don’t need to live close to someone to help them and make them feel special! 


Sarah sent me baby clothes, comfy newborn pajamas and a shirt that says #boymom. All three have been used over and over again. She also text me this beautiful picture and reminded me I’m doing enough 


Mama & Papa Woolf sent a box of thanksgiving decorations which my boys loved and made our home feel so festive. They also FaceTimed me on my birthday to sing to me! 


Angelina sent a game for my boys to play with and the girl has continued to text and ask for updates on baby and remembered my birthday. 


Anna Fetzer and her family sent a little outfit for brigs and a hand written birthday card! Hand written cards are one thing but MAILED hand written cards, who does that?? Anna! 


My mom sent me a ton of paper plates and utensils and of course flew out here during a world pandemic when her life at home is already so busy to help me! Oh and got me diapers and a toy for Luke!  And so much more. 


The Naylors sent us the sweetest book and ordered us pizza one night 


My bishop wrote me a hand written birthday card! 


Landons Aunt Terry send us a darling little newborn outfit! 


My Instagram friend Jill just text me and asked for my address to send me a baby gift. 


The Thorup’s on top of watching our kiddos for two days, dropped of Costco tacos on our doorstep


Jessica, the primary president in our ward, came over last night to wish me a happy birthday with a little thing of soap and a chick-fil-a gift card for lunch one day


Carolee has dropped off multiple treats over the last few months and offered to come over and take a family picture for when we got home from the hospital! 


The Curtis’s sent us dinner from afar! 


Our 14 year old neighbor came over and mowed our lawn and racked our leaves


So so so many people have text me and called over the past several weeks to wish me both happy baby and happy birthday. 

People who I haven’t seen in years but always remember my birthday, like my high school friend Kortney! Some people even left voicemails, and to Jason and Jenelle, I have to say you went above and beyond.


One of Landons fellow Fellows rented out a movie theater and they invited our family. They didn’t even know it was my birthday that day but just including us was beyond kind. 


And of course Landon who has done a billion things over the last 12 years but recently, he woke up yesterday morning and cleaned the whole house! He got me a super thoughtful gift. Something I’d never have even thought to purchase on my own but he only knew to purchase because he’s listed to me complain about the big dark spots under my eyes. He also got my an ice cream cake and the level of thought that went in to picking which cake and which ice cream made me smile so much. 


I’m sure I forgot a few but these were just little things but made me feel so grateful and loved!! 


Our world is in such a different place then it was 10 months ago. And this new normal feels lonely sometimes. But I’m reminded that we have tools and systems nowadays that can make you feel loved and remembered even if you can visit in person!! 


It was a great week! Wish me luck oh my first full week of a mom of four boys by myself 😬🤷‍♀️😭😴💛. I can do this, but I’m positive I wont have to do it alone, because no matter what it might feel like in the moment, I know I have so many people that are in my corner and can help me even from miles away!   


























 We missed our families! And love them so much 


Only Edwards family picture I got