Happily Ready to Learn

Time. For the first time, in my life time, I have a lot of extra time. I can’t remember a day in the last five years that I didn’t battle with finding some free time. Now, today, and for probably quite a while, I will have lots of spare time.

Starting Today, not only will I have time, but I will have no time with Landon.

I...

• work every day from 8:00am-5:00pm
  
  Landon...

• schools everyday then...
• works Monday from 5:00-9:00
• volunteers Tuesday from 5:00-8:30
• works Wednesday from 5:00-9:00
• Church stuff on Thursdays from 5:30-9:30
• works Fridays from 5:00-9:00
• works Saturdays from 7:00-11:00
• football games on Saturday Afternoon
• church meetings on Sundays

I have to be honest. I’m a little scared about it. I’m scared about not feeling like i’m accomplishing anything. I’m scared that I will waste time. I’m scared that I will miss him too much. I’m scared that I might let him know that. I’m scared about the fact that Landon’s busy-ness isn’t going to get better, but most likely worse. I’m scared I won’t be productive. I’m scared about falling into ruts. I’m scared about thinking I have so much time to serve that I don’t. I’m scared that i’ll disappoint Him. I’m scared.

But, i’m ready to learn. I’m ready to learn how to lead a simpler life. I’m ready to learn how to have projects and complete them. I’m ready to learn how to be productive with no outline in my day. I’m ready to learn how to fill my time the way the Lord would have me fill it. I’m ready to give all my time to Him.

I know that in two months I will have a little one to take care of 24/7. I am so excited about it. However, I know that I will have free time and I know that I will have to make choices of how to spend it. I don’t want to waste it. I know I won’t be perfect, and I know that i’ll have down moments, but I hope that at least my willingness to learn will help me.

Landon & I celebrated our two year anniversary yesterday. It was absolutely perfect! Landon is amazing. He is all the things that I am not and more. He is steady. He is calm. He is patient. He has perspective. He works hard. He always smiles. He is consistent. He loves the Lord. He makes me want to be better. I’m so grateful for him and I’m grateful that he will be patient with me as I kind of create a new me. I am happy, a little scared, but mostly ready and willing to learn.

SO Lucky & SO Happy to Have MY Family

A few weeks ago I had a slight melt down on Landon’s lap because my brother Gary was going to miss my graduation. Before you laugh A) I’m Pregnant. B) Gary is one of my best friends ever. C) I’m Pregnant. So…

My cute wonderful husband got a hold of my family and together they threw me a surprise graduation party before Gary had to go back to Med School! And bonus, both Jacqueline and my best friend Cami were able to make it.

First my brothers took on the difficult task of making an AWESOME looking entrance. The balloons had to be color-alternated, in increasing order of height. And the shoes? They're symbolic of me "walking" in my convocation.

My mom decorated the table with cute colorful polka dotted plates and my favorite flowers ever… Gerbera Daises. She also made individual menus for each plate. Oh and take note… these are my favorite foods in the whole wide world.

Then I walked in and Nate played the graduation song as I walked down the balloon aisle.

Yes. Hot Chocolate. Biscuits and Gravy. Macaroni and Cheese. Salad. Potstickers. Best Peach Pie Ever. OH MY GOODNESS there couldn’t be better food. I’m not kidding. I love all food, however I would take this over any perfectly cooked steak and wonderful crème brulee.

And this is a picture of the clan. My face is sad because the food is gone, not because of the party!

As if this wasn’t enough. Papa Woolf flew into town to be at the Graduation. He took Landon & I to Red Lobster. We ordered a drink to share, two salads, and an Ultimate Feast. WE LOVE SEAFOOD!

And as if we didn’t already have enough food. We went to Sam Hawk (my favorite Restaurant—its Korean) for dinner. And the bright yellow flowers at the bottom left corner are from Papa Woolf.

It was the perfect three day celebration!!! I’m so lucky to have my family and my wonderful husband.

Happy Wednesday!!!

Oh and good luck LANDO! (He is the air as I type heading to Texas for his first 2 interviews.)

I love you babe!

My Cheesy Happy Dream Post

Don’t. Mock.

My favorite movie in the whole wide world is Tangled. It may even be a little extreme how much I love it. I just wish that every movie was That happy. That warm. That light. Ask Landon, I smile the entire movie. Smile to the point that I’m almost crying or I am crying. (One of the two) Don’t. Mock.

One of my favorite things about the movie is Rapunzel’s Dream. It’s so simple. Her dream has nothing to do with money, fame, or finding her prince charming. She just wants to see those lights. In person. And I love it.

Much like Rapunzel, I’ve never had big dreams. I didn’t ever day dream about meeting my prince charming. I never thought about my wedding colors or what my ring would look like. I never wanted to land on the moon or climb to the top of a mountain. I didn’t want to be the star on a sports team or the President of the United States.

I don’t know if it’s because I’ve grown up next to BYU my whole life or what, but my dream, since I was a very little girl was to wear a blue cap and gown and take a picture by the BYU welcome sign, signifying that I had graduated.

On Friday, I get to do just what hundreds of thousands have done before. To some, the ceremony, walking across the aisle, being in a big bulky blue gown, and having an annoying hat on the top of their head is lame. To some, it just another reminder that they don’t have a job or that they still have 10 more years of schooling (sorry baby)! But for me, nah. For me, it’s much much much more. It’s what I’ve been waiting for since I was 5 years old and we drove through BYU and I looked out the window and saw lots of blue gowned graduates and their cute little tassel.

I’m a bit nervous though. There’s a clip in Tangled that is right before Rapunzel see’s the lights:

F: You okay?

R: I’m terrified.

F: Why?

R: I’ve been looking out a window for 18 years, dreaming about what it might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be?

F: It will be.

R: Hmm. And what if it is? What do I do then?

F: Well, that’s the good part I guess. You get to go find a new dream.

So what if Friday isn’t everything I dreamed it would be? And what if it is… then what?

Then I do what Flynn Rider told Rapunzel to do. Then I find a new dream. Which should be easy, since he will be coming in 2 ½ months and I can be a mommy.