I can't believe Jaxson turned 9. He deliberately disobeyed me. But when his birthday did finally come I realized in a real way, that he is so ready to be 9. I can't believe I got as lucky as I did to get Jaxson. He is the most incredible 9 year old on the planet. The quality/spiritual gift that he has that will take him furthest in life is his teachableness. I'm just amazed at his willingness to learn and grow and develop in any and every area of life every. single. day(even when he isn't naturally good at that area, like frisbee or snapping fingers.) The quality that he has gained the most this year is his ability to perceive others situations and empathize with them. Like the time he didn't want to overwhelm his teacher cause he could tell she already had a lot on her plate, or letting Ty ty win when it is just so hard for Jax not to try his hardest in everything. Another example is this amazing conversation:
Set up: Before Landon headed to night shift he told Jax that Jax would not be able to watch the BYU game that started at 10:15pm. Jaxson cried, but took it like a 9 year old would. He cried again when he realized Landon would know the score and see some of the game at work. After Landon left to work, we all went to the tramp and this conversation happened.
Jax: Mom, Dad should watch the game tonight. Will you tell him that I am okay with him watching the game, I get it. He works so hard and will have to sleep tomorrow so if he can he should watch
Me: Of course! But it really just depends on how busy he is at work, last night he was busy all night
Ty: Why? What happened?
Me: Well honestly, a 13 year old girl was shot in the stomach.
Ty: Oh no, is she okay?
Me: Yeah! Daddy and the surgeons were able to get the bullet out and she'll be just fine.
Jax: Wow! It's so so cool that every day dad goes to work, he is saving people.
*Everyone just stops jumping for a second and processes the conversation
Ty: Daddy should definitely watch the BYU game tonight
Jax: Definitely
This story only really makes sense if you understand Jaxson's insane passion and loyalty to BYU. But my heart just swelled during this conversation. I was so proud of Jaxson, that I ended up waking him up at 10:15 in the end to watch with me. He sat in bed with me and told me all the plays when he noticed my eyes were closed. I love hanging out with my new 9 year old.
Probably one of my favorite things about Jax is his passion for things and life. Sometimes his passion for things can drive me up a wall, but when I really thing about it, I wouldn't want it any other way. I really believe this passion will make him an incredible husband, father, person, neighbor, and disciple of Christ. He's going to do incredible things in his future.
Just some other fun things about Jax right now. He's become a big Packers fan. He still hasn't missed a single question on any test in school. He truly thinks school is to learn, and doesn't like it when there is a sub, because "you just don't learn as much".
Me: Jax, sometimes school is just to be social and hang out with friends.
Jax: No mom, school is for learning.
He has an incredible football throw, and i'm beginning to think I should probably sign him up for football, dang it. The biggest blessing of COVID-19 has absolutely been how close Jaxson and Ty have gotten and today after 9 long months of Jax wanting a girl he said, "Mom, I want a boy, because I want Luke to be able to have what me and Ty have."
I could talk about Jaxson forever. Because he's just so amazing to me. He will always be the boy that made me a mom. Those first 4 months of motherhood will always be some of the most cherished months of all of my life. He will always be my little boy, even when he's grown up up up and changing the world with his passion, teachability, empathy, and desire to grow and learn.
Okay I should stop haha.
But I have to brag about myself for a second. Ive been feeling really pregnant this last few days and feeling like a terrible mom. But going back through pictures, I had forgotten that I spent the first few days of the week prepping for Jaxson's birthday, which included helping Ty finish the bookmarks he'd been working on for weeks to give to Jaxson. Then we celebrated. The next few days were filled with wrapping Christmas presents and cleaning the house. Yes i'm completely ready for Christmas. And the last few days were filled with making costumes for the boys for Halloween. I'm doing more than enough. I think we all are. If only we could all see ourselves the way our loving, spouse, parents, children, friends or Heavenly Parents see us.
Oh and to brag on Landon. He knew the next week would be hard because he'd be on nights and that basically means I'm on my own 24/7. So he surprised me with a night away in the middle of the week. I went to a hotel at 6pm, organized pictures, relaxed, took a bath, and got home 11am the next day to a clean house and a completely moved around bedroom. Thank you babes. Oh Landon is so good to me. And I love how much he knows me.
Last thing maybe, Ty sat next to me and the sewing machine for hours watching me make the costumes. I really need to take him on a date to Joanns and let him pick something out to create. I think he'd love Joanns.
This picture was taken 9+ years ago when I was 16 weeks pregnant with Jaxson
Oh I love my brothers so so so so so much
