It was our GUYS birthday this week. I love Landon so much!!! The boys love Landon SO MUCH! We got to celebrate him basically all day. He got off at work at 8pm and I was NOT ready for that. But we got it all figured out. We went on a hike and then got some lunch together. We sauna'd and cold plunged, obviously! He played some chess and relaxed. We had the Dittos over to celebrate him! Poke bowls. Then mutual. Golly! Just love this guy. I just don't understand how he does it all and lately it feels like he is trying to improve even more, if you can imagine that. He burns the candle on both ends, he is in constant sacrifice mode. I just love everything about him. And I'm grateful I picked him.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LANDON!!!!!!
Sometimes I feel like i'm a grown up. Capable of dealing with some big things and then other times I feel like I can't figure it out. This week felt like a lot of learning. We went to bed Sunday night with the thought that Jaxson might have broken his jaw. That would have just been the worst. I was emotional about it. Maybe too emotional.
Even though Jaxson had received a blessing promising him that he wouldn't miss anything important to him, I couldn't believe. Even though the peds oral surgeon had told us that it was most likely Hemarthrosis, I struggled to hope in that. The thing is:
I fall apart when my kids are struggling.
That is something I need to figure out. How to be meek when things feel big. How to keep an eternal perspective. How to have hope. These are all things Landon is so good at. And all things i'm REALLY bad at.
We were so grateful that Jaxson's jaw wasn't broken.
We are still grateful.
All weekend I just kept telling Jaxson, "remember! you can play! Be grateful!"
Probably the greatest blessing of basketball has been the lessons we've learned off the court. Because of how much basketball matters to Jaxson, but also how much God matters, there has been a constant conversation with our family and with God on how to make this all work. Leaning into God when things don't go as planned--scratched eye, bike crash, potential broken jaw. Believing even if he's not healed. Trusting that he cares about Jaxson. Putting God first. Its not easy to not play on Sundays. For multiple reasons. But a new one, this year, is the guilt we feel for letting the team down. Jaxson could have helped them. win last night, but instead we sat in a hotel room at 8pm, unable to do anything about it. There isn't anything in our life where we are involving God more currently than this relationship with Basketball. And I imagine there are a lot more lessons to be learned!
Jaxson played some amazing basketball on Saturday.
Ty and I went on our own valentines date this week.
Luke giddily went off to school on valentines day. Ready to give his 6-7 cards out.
Brigs is loving Popsie and Nana time. (ME TOO!)
A consolation game tomorrow then we drive home.
