Lando:
Finished up a month of APS(Acute Pain Service). He was told that he has missed his calling and should quit the peds route and do nerve blocks for surgical pain. I swear if he jumped the peds ship now.... i'd do absolutely nothing..... but I would think a few things. He (and we) have been on a very long an exhausting road of trying to figure out our future and his career. Its been painful, and heavy, and scary, and frustrating.... ahem, and we still don't have any concrete decisions, but we are getting there. Wednesday is a big day. I thought we would get to this point in his training and we would both know what we wanted, but it seems like we know less and less with every passing day. I'm grateful to be married to a man who so thoroughly and intentionally agonizes over his future career. Because frankly that agonizing isn't for selfish reasons, work is not his priority, we are. He just wants me and our boys to be happy and successful. And we just want that for him. And so we spin in circles, all. day. long. 72 hours people, and thennnnnn more waiting. BUT our part will be over. *more details when we know more details.
Becs:
I had a really hard week. I hate the medication I have to take to get babies here. It turns me into a different human being and i'm constantly trying to grasp what emotions and actions I need to own and what emotions and actions I can blame on the medication. I also have to manage where to put my pain. I recognize that we are extremely blessed, three beautiful healthy happy babies, so many people are not as blessed. But then I have to take medication every day(which has awful side effects), I have to give myself shots, I have to get ultrasounds and go through uncomfortable visits of doctors being all up in your business multiple times a cycle.... I have to sit alone in a nurses office (not that Lando wouldn't want to be there, he just can't because #residency) and have them tell me that it won't work this cycle because you burst a cyst and won't ovulate. And sometimes it does just feel lonely. And then I have to deal with the normal ups and downs of motherhood and when I have really normal bad mothering moments, its easy to go to "Why in the heck are we even trying to get another baby here, I can't possibly handle another one, maybe God doesn't think I can handle another baby." And then other moments its like, "I want 5, 6, 7 kids, Im a freaking rockstar mom!" You guys. Just know, that when I am open about things, it means I am definitely past the hardest part. So mostly I'm just laughing right now at how ridiculous my week was and how grateful I am for forgiving boys and fresh starts!
Jax:
Jax stayed home sick for most of the week. Poor guy. He has probably woken up every single night for the last 2 weeks with stomach pain. We took him to the doctor and she thought he probably had a bug but also that he may be just placing his worries in his stomach. Which I already knew he did. Jaxson's life has been in a constant state of change and will continue on that road for a few more years. That weighs heavy on mine and Landon shoulders. We are excited help him manage and work through these worries now. I order a book on amazon suggested by our pediatrician and downloaded some kids meditation apps. We also talked to Jax about how when Landon worries he gets quiet, when I worry I don't sleep, and Jax piped up excited and was like, "Yeah when I get worried my stomach hurts." Emotions. I really want my boys to feel them and learn how to manage them. I also want them to be tough. But not tough because they are boys, but because we all need to be tough to some level, and we also need to give appropriate attention to our emotions. Balance. Balance. UGHH, soooo hoping he feels better this week.
Ty:
Now that I think about it, Ty probably had the best week. Other than waking up every night because he is afraid of the halloween decorations that he picked out and hung up, he is just becoming the best 4.5 year old! This was a conversation we had this week:
Jax: [this was all done in a very haughty tone.] Ty, I'm older than you, and mom is older than you, and dad is older than you, and mummy is older than you, Hallie is older than you, popsie is older than you, nana is older than you.
Ty: [Quiet]
Jax: Grandpa is older than you, nana is older than you....
Ty: [Quiet]
Jax: Pierce is older than you and probably most kids at your school are older than you.
And then Jax looked at Ty for a response
Ty: [Looked straight at him] "Oh YEAH yaxson? Well God is older than you. And Yesus too."
Jax: [Silent]
Then we all busted up laughing!!!!
Also, Ty calls hangers "Hookers." So you just can't help but laugh so hard when he says, "Mom where are my hookers, I need more hookers, can you find the hookers. PPlllllleeaaassse."
Ty scored three goals in his soccer game. He also colored so well all week. He focuses so well and is so creative. He also threw up a ton Thursday night which helped me realize that we have all probably been a little sick. And he has been the happiest halloween boy all week with our (ugly) home decorated in halloween dollar store decor ;).
Luke:
Oh Luke. I swear if teeth don't pop up soon i'm most likely going to lose it. With everything else going on, it would be nice if he could just not be a baby right now ;). Also, I just desperately wanted him to be a calm little baby, but he just isn't. He is a determined little soul dang it. Why can't I just have one of those, sit on your lap all the time babies. Hahaha! No I love them all just the way they are. Luke does LOVE reading books. And he loves to tell his brothers off. He will literally walk up to them, point at them and start shouting nonsensical sounds at them. The saying "Its like taking candy from a baby" DOES NOT apply to Luke. If you take anything from him, he literally flips out. He is very possessive of me, even if Lando tries to cuddle with me, Luke freaks out. He tried brownies for the first time tonight and it for sure is his knew favorite food. He would eat fruit all day long if I let him. And only fruit.
Oh goodness, as I write all this, I just see that we are all going up against a lot. I'm learning more and more with every day how much work life is and how much of our life is work. But work does make you happy, so i've heard ;). I also think managing a family is just a lot of non check listable things. And it is also a lot of the same stuff on repeat, always.
Okay, i'm done. This was therapeutic. October here we come.
WOOLF FAMILY PHOTO SHOOT:
I was determined to not spend a dime. But I failed.
No new clothes= $0
My mom took the pictures=$0
And I go 75% off the pictures that I printed off=$7.63
Best photo shoot ever :)
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| Date with Jax! Baseball and Books |
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| Date with Ty: Dollar Tree decorations and Decorating. |
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| Lukes face for 90% of the time. |
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| Cute Lando's family on his High School Grad night. |
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| Teaching boys football! |
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| I spy happy Luke |
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| He spent a good hour with this picture and then when he was done said, "Mommy! Can you send this to everyone?" And I said, "Who do you want me to send it to?" And he said, "Everyone in the whole wide world!" |
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| Date night! Burgers and Ice cream! |
