10.27.2019

Heaven!

Dear Jax: 
This week after your baptism was so sweet. I could tell you felt different, I could tell you wanted to be your best. Both mean so much.  Feeling and wanting. You have a special place in our family bubs. All of you boys do. God masterfully sent the three of you down at the very time he did, for very specific reasons. Your brothers need your leadership. So just keep loving like you do, keep protecting your brothers like you do, keep trying like you do, and forgiving like you do and saying sorry like you do. You are already enough!! I love that your favorite part of school is recess and that you like a girl named Alice and that you love your brothers. You're growing up dude. 

Dear Ty: 
Oh Ty ty! I love how naturally connected to the spirit you are. You feel the spirit so much, you also feel anxiety so much. I've noticed that your emotions match who and what you are around. I'm sorry I let you watch Hocus Pocus this week. We thought it would be fun, but it ended up giving you bad dreams for days. But I love how every time I teach you about Jesus you light up. Keep surrounding yourself around good things!!! I love that you love halloween and you want to be just like Jax and that you play with Lukers, always be there for Lukers and Jax they need you. Keep helping Jax let loose a little and making Luke feel loved. I can't wait to see what comes next. 

Dear Lukes: 
You are a bubbly happy determined little dude. You bring us all so much joy and light. I'm always so happy that we changed your name to Luke, "light giving" is the perfect way to describe your cute chubby little self. I love how you strut your stuff and you have confidence beyond measure. I love how you want to wrestle with your brothers. Don't just play the younger sibling role bud, you have just as much to teach Ty & Jax as they do you. They need your light! We all do. I just know deep down inside my bones that you are going to light up the world with your good soul.  

I hope my boys know how much I love them. So so so so so so much! 

Last weekend was so special and I just loved this week. Lots of work, lots of to dos, but all with perspective. Studying the scriptures and talking about Christ with my boys have been the highlight of my days. My @comefollowmechats instagram has been JUST what I needed to turn our home and our sights to our Savior. I haven't always had the strongest faith, but I have never been able to deny how I feel when I intentionally pray, when I intentionally study, when I intentionally surround my life with Christ. 

Peace. Joy. Comfort. Light. Lightened. Hope. Perspective. 

I'm so grateful for my little family and i'm so grateful for Landon. He's been the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and I am beyond grateful that we don't just have the next 70 years of life together, but also eternity. Life with these four souls is already pretty amazing, I can't even imagine what heaven will be like when we are all together. It will be a party!!!!!! Perfection!!!! #noemptychairs

I'm beyond blessed! 


Teething is hard

Cold peppers cure everything 


Our friend Henry who is coming to Cincinnati with us!!!! 






Gosh he's handsome!  

Levi is finally out of the NICU!!!!!! SO proud of this little dude!! 

I hope my boys are best friends forever. Its not very long til Luker joins in

10.20.2019

Jaxson's Baptism Weekend!!!

(Quick update from last weeks blog, we are going to Cincinnati) 

I would repeat this weekend over and over and over again. Although, i'm that special kind of exhausted too. That one that is filled with gratitude, spirit, deep emotions, ..... I'm not sure I could handle this weekend over and over, but I'll never forget it. Landon kind of describes as spiritual fatigue. We both felt so much love from so many people. And the Holy Ghost filled our hearts, souls, home and now our Jax!!

It started with Landon and I taking Jax on a date. We got Sushi at Takashi and a Hot Dog at J Dawgs. We picked Lando up at 7 from work and while driving to the restaurant, we talked about Jaxson's baptismal interview with the bishop on Sunday and then both took a moment to just bear testimony of how special Baptism and the Holy Ghost are. 

Then Jaxson ate so much Sushi. I left Takashi and J Dawgs with this unanticipated excitement. He is SOOOO fun!!!! He is growing up and becoming our friend. 

Saturday we woke up and headed to the races. Landon ran a half marathon. Jax ran a 5K and Ty ran a half a mile. I tried to run with Jax, but I could not keep up with him pushing the 130lb stroller. So about half a mile in, he took off. He worked so hard and I was so proud of him. Landon PR'd. One of these days, he isn't going to PR and that will be a new feeling for him. Ty ran the whole time. At the very end he tripped bad and bawled. But he got back up and finished and I could not have been more proud of him than that moment. Falling hurts and he got back up and still finished. 

Then we headed home and watched college football all day. Oh how Jaxson loves football. 

At about 5pm we went to a local used bookstore and we let Jaxson pick out some books. That boy loves to read. And then we had dinner with Landons family. The night ended at 12:00 after Jax, Landon and I watched BYU beat Boise State. WHAT???? Happy Birthday to Jaxson. 

Today was a beautiful, spiritually packed day. I always wonder if i'm doing enough for my kids, but I feel like God helped me feel peace with all I have done for Jax in his first 8 years. He was ready to get baptized and I was ready to witness it!!!!! We had biscuits and gravy for breakfast. We gave Jaxson his own personal set of scriptures which he was so excited about it. Nana and Popsie got him some new Sunday clothes. He got all ready and headed to his interview with the Bishop! 

I taught Sunday School today and I the lesson was so special. I for sure did my part in preparing, but the comments and the vulnerability and the depth at which we reached as a class together, it was beautiful. 

This afternoon was my favorite. Mummy & Papa Woolf got him a cute baptismal blanket and then a trip to Harry Potter world. (Sidenote: Mummy at like 12 every flavorer jelly beans, and almost vomited. For real.) We had the grandparents here and they each went around and bore their testimony of Baptism and the Holy Ghost to Jaxson. It took 12 minutes total and the spirit was so strong. Then we got dished up with Jaxson's pick of veggie burritos and gathered around and watched a 32 minutes video I made of Jaxson's first 8 years of life. Oh my heart. He is so grown up. I will treasure that video forever! 

Then off to the church! 

At this point Jax could not contain himself. He was bouncing up and down, "15 more minutes!" "6 more minutes!" "I'm so excited!" I can't wait". The Baptismal service was so sweet and beautiful. Jax really wanted all of his cousins to be involved and he also wanted Uncle Scotty to speak. Everyone did such a great job. After Jax was baptized, I went in to help him get ready. "Mom, I just, I just feel so happy. I can't believe that just happened. I'm baptized. I'm so happy." 

It was beautiful weekend. 

Jaxson is an incredibly special boy. And I feel honored beyond measure to be his mother.

Tonight, I feel a special kind of contentment. 

Also, I just feel such gratitude for so many people  that I needed to write their names here. 
My parents: for obvious reasons and for sharing their testimony with Jax, and my mom for writing beautiful music. 
Landon's parents: for obvious reasons and for sharing their testimony with Jax and always being so present. 
Scotty and Jen for coming to the baptism even though their baby had a blood transfusion. And scotty giving the sweetest talk
Sarah for helping Hailey prepare her talk, and getting her kids to learn the music and Nate for always being that quiet constant
Lacey for teaching Hallie every word and playing and helping with the dessert! 
Cory, Nate, Scott, Johnny, Dad & Papa Woolf for standing in the circle 
Johnny and Marie for coming even though they had a party at their home earlier 
The Fetzer family for being always good to the core and supporting and loving our family in ways that we desperately needed here. 
The Curtis' and Bloomers for coming 
Karen Nickoliasen for helping with Luke 
Bishop Nickoliasen for conducting and being there with all of his business. 
Kristy, Debbie and Jessica for helping with the program and being the Primary representatives 
My mom for bringing the cake 
My dad for running back and getting the milk 
Mama Woolf for taking over the kitchen duties both at the church and in our home today! 
Mama & Papa Woolf for getting the ice cream, strawberries and BLUE paper goods 
The man that filled the font 
The woman that called on Thursday to help coordinate how we could get our baptism clothes 
The woman that came the stake primary and retrieved the baptism clothes for me so I didn't have to worry about them 
Josh being the witness 
Hailey speaking on Baptism 
Ty & Nate saying Prayers 
The cousins singing The Miracle 
The gift the Fetzers brought
The gift the primary brought 
The love that EVERYONE showered Jax with today and by extension us. 

I know i'm forgetting some things, but that doesn't mean i'm any less grateful. Tonight I know God loves me, He loves our family and He loves my newly baptized 8 year old Jaxson!!!!!!! 



Monday: 
Everyone morning we go on Halloween hunts. We are up to 47 decked our houses. 







Tuesday: 
My ComeFollowMeChats have made our days so much more meaningful!!! 




I teach geography in Jaxson's class every Tuesday. I got authentic food from each country that we are studying about donated and we taste tested our way through Italy, France, Vietnam, Angola and Namibia. 



I had to make homemade Funge from Angola, cause, there is no Angola food here. 



Wednesday:  
Football plays from Jax, "I have defensive plays too mom, they all end in interceptions." 







Cincinnati. 




We surprised Zach for his birthday. 


Thursday: 



Friday:  







Saturday: 







Sunday: 





Walking to his baptism! 









Haileys Talk. Scotty talked about the Holy Ghost and shared two meaningful stories of how God comforted him when he wasn't married but desperately wanted to be and when he needed to know if Jesus was his savior, and on his knees the Holy Ghost testified to him. It was perfection.