Rank Lists In!!

Okay friends, this is post #4 of our medical school journey! These posts have different titles, but looking back they should have been titled:

Happy & Naive (MS1 & MS2)

We Quit & Lost  (MS3)

Recovering (MS4 beginning)

Peace (MS4 Ending)

Just a brief recap:

The first two years of medical school were hard in their own ways, but I feel like we had mentally prepared for that and we were loving the whole experience even if Landon was studying every waking moment. But third year hit and we expected Landon to love rotations(specifically surgery) and boy how wrong we were. We hadn’t prepared for this. We didn’t know we needed to. But we needed to.

All of a sudden half way through third year we were both like, “Whoa. Landon is not happy! (Which is SOO Not Landon) Maybe you don’t like medicine at all. Yeah you don’t like Medicine. We choose the wrong path. NO!!! Whoops! What now? Maybe we should quit. We can’t quit. So much debt!!! But maybe lets go get an MBA/MD so you have more options. Yeah lets do that.”

So Landon started studying for the GMAT and talked to the MBA director and applied to the program and was in. And then, three months later… Heavenly Father quietly let us know that wasn’t the right path. Good thing we were listening. But its also a good thing we were acting. I think that was a really important step for us. Trying to find a solution. But we did listen to Heavenly Father and turned down the program, but that was nerve wracking. Now what. We were scared.

So we started into April of third year having absolutely no idea what Landon was going to do, and needing to pick fairly soon and having a new baby coming in 6 weeks. Seriously? We never, ever, ever, ever knew picking a CAREER would be so hard! Was my hard working husband every going to be really happy? He deserved to be so happy with his career. This was hard. So so hard! It took us a while to realize this: that by going into Medical School we had only picked a path, but we had not picked a career.

We continued with faith! But were exhausted and scared and worried.

Landon’s first rotation in 4^th year was Anesthesia. And he liked it. He didn’t love it. But he liked it. And we felt good about it. So that’s how we picked his entire career path. Basically process of elimination. SCCCARRRYY!!!

If you would have told me at the beginning of Medical School that picking a specialty would be the hardest part of this 4 years I would have laughed at you. And if you would have told me that Landon wouldn’t fall in love with anything and just pick based off process of elimination, I would have been terrified.

Over the last 9 months, Landon has grown to LOVE Anesthesiology. He is so excited about it. He is so excited about the next step. He is so excited to be able to help people. He is excited to start making a little bit of money. He is excited to become an expert in his chosen field. There was a point in this journey that I actually wondered if we would just have to settle. And learn how to be happy with that. But Landon is going to love his job and let me tell you, he will be one sexy, happy, positive, quality anesthesiologist. Lucky me J. I truly am amazed at how perfectly the job fits him. How did we not know this was the perfect fit for him? I am amazed we are here, at this point, with so much peace. We are headed in the right direction. We are!! I never thought we’d be here, but we are.

Well with that, rank lists are in (which was another amazing journey). What I normally thought would be such a stressful, agonizing, loooong wait to figure out where we are going, just isn’t for me. I’m enjoying this little wait, this little moment of peace before we need to grow more and stretch more and learn more. The Lord has shown us through the last four years that He is here, with us, helping us, whispering to us, guiding us. Matching won’t be any different. He is apart of all of this. He is aware of Becca & Landon & Jaxson & Tyler. And if we have faith in Him, he will give us peace & guidance.

Peace is what I feel at the end of our medical school journey. Peace! I plan on holding on to that feeling as long as I can.

He is going to be an Anesthesiologist!!! YAY!

FHE Lie Monster and Truth Sun 

Our rank list lists. So many different options, so many different choices. But happy to know that we submitted our list with the help of Heavenly Father! We are excited for our next step. 

Jax got what Ty had! 

Nine Months & Miserable.

Ty:

I can't believe our little guy is nine months. He is 17lbs 4oz, 27.5 inches tall and has a 18.25cm head. So basically he is 20% on size and 85% on head. Poor neck. But he is so so so sick and miserable and just cries and whimpers and moans all day long. For four days now! Poor thing! It's heart breaking.

Jax:

Says "poor little sweetie pie" every minute and makes sure to kiss the back of Tys head as much as possible. (Back so he doesn't get sick too.) 

We have been doing PPQ (pizza, pajamas, questions) nights for a couple of months now. I asked the question, "Jax what do you want our next house to be like" 

This was his response:

1. A swimming pool inside

2. A big board through the whole house that you can count down the days to the next day

3. A big picture of Santa clause

4. A Hole in the wall with a Tv in it. 

5. No laundry room, so we don't have to keep the door closed from Ty. 

6. 6 bathrooms (one for everyone dad, mom, Jax, try, Abby, cooper)

7. A real tree in my room 

8. No stairs. Bedroom downstairs 

9. Nails in the walls for us to hang our shirts and clothes on

10. A bed in the ceiling and a ladder that I can climb up to it

It was hilarious!! He just had more and more things to add. 

Bec

I was able to go to mutual, temple with a friend, watch a few kiddos, watch one young women's band concert, take another out for her birthday, go to a shower, and go with Landon to and Exit interview about our debt. <---that one gave me butterflies. I love working with budgets and financial planning. 

Lando:

Played some basketball! Hung with us a lot. Went to class and wrote some papers. Has been reading The Worth of Soul (I'm reading too but behind). And is amazing. He just so good and always trying to be better! 

Hope next week brings back our happy ty guy!

Family Home Evening 

Best cup ever from grandma 

Pointing to Grandma Woolf!