Thanksgiving in Utah

Monday:

 We were suppose to leave Tuesday to Utah, but I woke up at 3am Monday morning and just felt like we should leave as soon as possible. So I did all the necessary things Monday morning (like Brigs doctors appointment, he is still not gaining weight.....blah) and the boys and I took off at 1pm. Brigs had shots and cried for 3 hours. Plus it was dark by 4:30 and I had been up since 3am, sooooo we spent the night in Butte. Lukes and I shared a bed. HE fell asleep holding my hand. It was cute only until he kept whacking me in the face with his feet then his hands then his feet again. Squirmy little thing. 

Tuesday: 
Tuesday was smooth sailing to my parents house. Luke somehow took a picture of my driving which I  kind of like that I have a record of that. While I fed brigs in the car, I had the boys run into the bathroom and get and pay for a treat. Things are starting to shift over here. I don't have to do every thing by myself. When we got to my moms we just sat and chatted while the boys ran around outside. My mom and I suddenly looked at each other and found ourselves in the EXACT same position mirroring each other. Hilarious. Then we went to Sushi with my brother Gary. He dared the boys to eat wasabi. They did. And he lost money. Also, it snowed all day in Spokane, I was SOOOOO glad that I left Monday.

Wednesday: 
Jax played with his BFF Oscar. We picked Lando up from the airport. We went and saw Christmas Lights with the Wennerholms. Jaxson went with his Popsie to the BYU Basketball game. 

Thursday: 
We decorated and set up for Thanksgiving. Then we cooked for Thanksgiving. Then we had the most amazing thanksgiving dinner I have ever had. Then my family all went to watch Encanto together and Brigs and I stayed home and put thanksgiving away and cleaned up all of thanksgiving. I had the fireplace on and Christmas music and pies out when everyone came back for dessert. It was such a fun service to do for my family but also, I legit worked for 3 hours to get my moms house back in order. Thanksgiving is a lot of work haha. 

Friday: 
Lando and I went to the temple. Cousins played with cousins. Siblings hung with siblings. We had leftover thanksgiving food, played some games, watched some football and finished the night watching Hamilton and the Gonzaga game with my parents. 

Saturday: 
I woke up early and saw my wedding dress in the closet and suddenly had the urge to put it on. I then waited patiently for my boys to wake up and see me in the dress. One by one they came up. First Luke, then Ty, then Jax. None of them noticed. Did say a word. I was literally walking around in my wedding dress and they talked to me as if that was totally normal. Oh boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We went and hung out at Lacey's house. Ty and Copey played all morning and Jax and Hal pal played. Cope has grown up sooooo much. He so darling. I love him. Then we went to Top Golf with my fam and that was such a highlight for me. I love DOING things with my people. Then we came back to my parents house and watched BYU soccer win in the Elite 8. BYU basketball beat Utah. And BYU football beat USC. BYU finished November without losing a single game in any sport across both mens and womens teams. And that is AMAZING. I dont even know if its ever been done before, anywhere. 

Sunday: 
We woke up and rushed packed. Then stopped by the Curtis's for breakfast. My kids just get along with all of these kids so well. Its happiness. Then we drove 11 hours. The boys did great. But I was sad the whole day that this was how I was spending my birthday. Selfish I know. But my entire life is taking care of people. And I feel like I live for my birthday in which I have a day where everything is taken care of for me. And i'm finding that i'm disappointed ever year hahahaha! I guess I should have picked a different path, if I wanted my birthdays to actually be about me :). 

Anyway, it was a great thanksgiving weekend. I'm excited to spend my first thanksgiving in Arizona next year. That seems CRAZY!!!!!! 

Why I Became a Mom

Lando: 

It was his week of call. Really busy some days and home really early on the opposite days. He woke up every morning at 4:30 to exercise. He's currently at work finishing up his last call shift for the week. He actually got called in last night from 11pm-3am. And I had no idea. In fact, he was kind of grumpy this morning and finally I was like, "where are you babe, you seem distant." 

Lando: I don't know, I think i'm just tired.
Becs: You went to bed at 9:30 was it just not a restful night? 

Lando: Well I had to go back into the hospital 

Becs: I know, but you got home at 9pm. 

Lando: No I had to go BACK in from 11-3 

Becs: Oh. 

Yep, I don't know if that has ever happened. I'm such a light sleeper I always sort of know when he goes back in. But not last night. 

Becs:
I love my life. I feel very claustrophobic all night between my back pain and brigs dependence on me, but other than that, I just really love my life. I'm meeting with a chiropractor again and giving brigs all the bottles and cups that ever existed. I'm not stressed it won't work out, i'm just getting burnt out. Also I found my orange pants again. If you know, you know. 

Jaxson: 
He had a rough start of the week. He hasn't really made any close friends at school. He came home in tears and it took him a while for him to place why he was feeling the way he was. But he finally just admitted he really doesn't have someone at school. We talked through it. I asked him what would make him feel better and he said, "Ice Cream." So we literally dropped everything we were doing, and hadn't even had dinner and went and got ice cream. Its moments like this, that made me want to be a mom, its what I pictured mommy life being, helping my kiddos through heart break. His team also lost by 41 pointes on Saturday. I'm just glad he is on a team and getting experience. 

Ty: 

He has improved SOOOO much in his reading. He is able to read a verse or two of scriptures and i'm so dang proud of him for it. He came to Jaxson's game with me Saturday night and when we got back, I had to get the babysitter off and make sure the littles were good. But Ty, he had gotten a bag of ice for Jax for his knee, gotten him his pillow and blanket, turned on the fire and gotten the book Wonder for me to read to both of them. Moments like this, was what I pictured mom life being, watching my kiddos become.  

Luke: 

I keep forgetting to mention, it took me two days to break Lukies thumb sucking habit. That was like a month ago. I can't even believe how little thought and effort I had to put into to break the habit. I just told him that if he didn't stop, he'd keep getting sick, and if he keeps getting sick, he won't be able to play with friends. and Bam. He stopped. I put nail polish on his thumb twice but honestly I know it was the knowledge that sucking his thumb meant not being with people that broke the habit. 

He locked himself in the bathroom the other day. We were racing up the stairs and he got excited, shut the door behind him and twisted the knob. When the painters painted our house they took/broke a few things... our blinds, and the keys to doorknobs. Anyway, it took us about 30 minutes to unlock him. He didn't seem to mind, when we finally got the door opened, he had gone through the medicine cabinet to find himself some "da-bins" aka bandaids. 

He was SOOOOO jazzed about being at the High School play. He clapped his little hands and rocked his head to the beat. He has music in him. Taking the three older boys to the play.... man, another reason I became a mom, experiencing life and fun with my kids. 

Briggy: 
He's working with a speech therapist. He is actually eating some food now. But we can't figure out how to get him to drink. He is only waking up once at night. Which is totally doable and I hold him so tightly at night when I feed him. I feel capable of doing this because I just think he's my last. So each night I feed him I try and memorize how his little body feels in my arms and the stillness of the home and the sacrifice that comes through parenthood. It's why I became a mom, feeling that Godly sacrifice of raising a human. I got to say, that feeling, it feels so present with my babies. It fades as they get older, but I'm able to see how beautiful motherhood is through the sacrifices I make for my babies the easiest. 

The blue part is what Jax said when I read that to him.